Figuring shit out.
"While I don't see anything that's making me too worried right now, with your history things could get bad. That's a real concern right now." Said my therapist via Zoom yesterday. She said it calmly, because she's supposed to be calm and supportive but I have learned to add two Octaves of panic to her…
For the first few hours after I found out that I was pregnant, I was super excited. We'd been trying for months and had just started talking with the doctor about fertility help. After all, I'm no spring chicken and there was all that vodka in my twenties and who knows what I'd managed to…
Continue reading ➞ This is What it’s Like to be Pregnant and Afraid
I've been pretty good for months now but last week was rough. Last week, I caught feelings and they weren't fucking good. One day I felt fine, the next I felt like a storm cloud that got gangbanged by the Cure. I had no energy, I got all weepy, and sad and empty and...depressed? My…
Sometimes, my brain is a real asshole and seems to hate me. I've had anxious episodes a few times in my life. I suffer from low-grade depression, not always, but often. I've had a few panic attacks throughout my life. Lately, it's been bad. About four months ago I went out for drinks with colleagues…
Continue reading ➞ I Could Outrun A Tiger: Panic And Anxiety
